you're a mystery yourself

23 March, 2011

9:05 PM

STORY OF THE DAY

The boy didnt want it to drag. He didnt want to carry the present into the future. He wanted a new future.

The girl didnt. She wanted the present to be in the future. She wanted to carry on.

The boy said not to make things difficult as it already is. The girl understood...but it meant it was gonna be more difficult for her, because this wasnt what she wanted.

Then it came across her mind: Would they be really happy like that? Once this chance of love is gone, it's difficult to get back. Or worse, it may never come back... Why cant they live for the moment and be so much happier... Will they?

Well, the boy seemed to be coping much fine without the girl. The girl felt happy about it, yet sad...because she wasnt part of his happiness which she was once... The girl found herself unable to smile at anything else. No one could do that besides him now.

She knew it wouldnt be much possible, but still carried the little hope that he would change his mind... For he was her happiness, her pillar of strength, her guardian, protector and her best friend... He was pretty much her life though it wasnt that obvious.

But once he was gone, she shattered, and realised how much he actually meant to her. She herself never knew it was till this extent, until this horrible thing strucked... She regretted she never knew, but indeed, sometimes youll never know the true value of something until you lose it...

If the girl could hold the boy's hand again, if she knew it would end like this, she would never have let go...ever...

♥ loves.

9:46 PM

It's hard to forget someone that you want to forget, but can't.
It's so much harder to forget someone that you don't want to forget...but have to.....

♥ loves.

10:26 PM

Mr Jacques told me my walk was not bad! Was happy. I only managed to did it after redoing it many times

♥ loves.

5:06 PM

I know...it would be nice if there wasnt me. No one to pester you for anything. No one you need to care about. Youll be living the free life. Nothing will hold you back. Yea you were right. I am a burden.

♥ loves.

10:52 PM

I somehow always mess up....

♥ loves.

8:43 PM

Wrote it down on the black sheet -
watered with sad little woes..
I then crush it up, place it in my heart
where no one will ever know..

♥ loves.

9:48 AM

In the end, i took no credit of what i did.

In terms of doing good unto others, yes i mever minded. All in all it's not abt the credit anyway. I just feel sad what happened during presentation. If i knew, i would hv stood in front of them...if i knew i would hv written out my own task list. Then others would hv heard their voices...and also mine. But now my voice isnt heard. And the other voices failed to recognise me.

♥ loves.

12:41 AM

True. Sometimes some things are better left untold. Sometimes lesser comments would bring a faster solution; maybe good, maybe bad, but still a solution. A conclusion to prevail peace and harmony.

♥ loves.

1:01 AM

Another pathetic day.... Had a strange movie lk dream....of being chased.. I hardly get those dreams.

Ah, without the wacom i rly cant get anything done. Only recopying my notes.. Rly not looking forward to this SP. Dont know if i'll get sick agn. Had fever the 1st SP, then for the 2nd i vommited...

Ohwells.... Am not feeling well now. My right jaw was clicking this morning, so it was very disturbing...but it stopped. I used up many tissues today too... Im seriously not taking care of myself. Ahwells......

Now i cant breathe properly... it's lk thr's smth stuck in my throat and chest. It feels highly uncomfortable...and im feeling bloated...

So much for complaining... not trying to gain anything from it...but sigh.......

What a day.

♥ loves.

12:43 AM

We always said we'd do our best, didn't we?

The efforts placed in may not be ever enough, but it's enough to keep us going, and enough for us to try harder. Let's keep that promise (:

Yet another semester has ended, and im blogging again. Was a rly tough sem ive ever gotten...nvr struggled so much in my course before. I've always suffered in technical stuff, but there were friends to back me up and root me.

I didnt care for my grades this time round, since i didnt hv hope for 3D and Img Syn, but i did what i could. Yesssss of course i procrastinated here and thr and didnt rly put in my best (which i greatly regretted), but im glad i managed to pass this dreadful stage of yr 2. Another dreadful stage is gonna come up after these 3 wks of hols, but thats for later!!

I rly rly have the urge to dpaint and improve in my gestures. Ms Grace said i improved a lot for gestures, and i know it. Ive put in my best effort, and did well. I wanna draw my own stuff too, but idk how... :(. When i see ppl's illustrations tt i love, i rly wish i could draw lk them. Idk why i jz can't put down my ideas nicely. I hope hope hope i'll be able to do better in this area in these 3 wks. And i'll be working on my 3D annnddddd dpainting! I pray i didnt rust... I WANT A WACOM.......... I didnt get to order. I want one :(

Ahhhh..........i always dont know how to end my blog post. So bye.

♥ loves.

1:57 AM

Only wanted to make you happy...

♥ loves.